I'm sort of confused... or something? Mental Health

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I%26#039;m sort of confused... or something?

A while back I started noticing a change in my behavior. So did everyone else, obviously. I did some research and stuff and read about all kinds of symptoms and stuff and came to the conclusion that there was a pretty good change I was BiPolar. I told my BFFL through an email [[we live far apart and don%26#039;t get to talk much any other way]] and her mom [[Urrrggg]] went through her mail and read it. She decided to tell my dad [[URRRGG]] and she also told him other things too, like that I was cutting myself. He made me sit down and listen while he yelled at me about how I%26#039;m not BiPolar and yada yada my mom is crazy and just says she is so she can get money. She%26#039;s not a liar. She got diagnosed and so did my have sister a few weeks after I had found out that was probably what I was. I also read that it was genetic, so I began thinking that this HAD to be the answer to my outrageous change in behavior. I was too scared to talk to anyone so I just kept it to myself and tried to fix it myself.

1 day ago

I guess it kind of worked on some levels. For a while I could keep from having fits and yelling at everyone. That didn%26#039;t last long, unfortunatley. It got worse and worse. Eventually my family and I got sooo distant I hated coming home and I would do anything I could to stay away for as long as I could. I hated being with them and I could tell they hated being with me. I couldn%26#039;t help it. They got so fed up with me they wouldn%26#039;t even listen to me anymore. So there I was... all alone in this confusing world trying to figure out what the heck was wrong with me. I%26#039;m still like this. We hardly talk anymore. The little communication we have is fighting. And one minute I%26#039;m happy and cheery and the next I%26#039;m ready to jump infront of a freight train!! I can%26#039;t stand it anymore. I don%26#039;t know what to do. I can%26#039;t try to talk to them, they don%26#039;t listen. I don%26#039;t have very many friends anymore and the ones I do have aren%26#039;t helpful. My best friend can%26#039;t help, she lives so far away.Answer Over!
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